What's the main thing?

Jess: It’s been awhile since we’ve bothered to do a blog on any sort of current event, but we've been talking a lot about the Hobby Lobby suit. If you don’t know what happened, here’s a summary of the action.

The internet was afire with responses to this decision seconds after it was announced. As the Justice Ginsburg stated, this decision seems to open the way for all sorts of “religions” and “religious reasons” for not following federal laws. This is a huge concern for many, and it is definitely one that bothers me. What if I worked for a company owned by Christians who think women should be submissive to their husbands, never seeking employment outside of the home? Is this religious belief also covered?

Wes and I will get our insurance through our religious entity. Thankfully, neither Lutherans nor Methodists are against birth control—in fact we both support it as a responsible way to engage in sexual activity.  But if birth control were not covered, we would have the means to cover it from our own pockets. Many are not so lucky—particularly those who work in low-paying retail jobs. And the fact of the matter is that people working in these jobs, who cannot afford to purchase birth control, also cannot afford to support a child.

I recently heard someone say that many people who claim to be pro-life are actually pro-birth. The thought of ending life before it truly begins goes against everything they believe in, and so they work against it. I think that upholding the sacredness of human life is definitely an important value, and one that Christians should have. We believe that we are made in the image of our Creator, so we are called to treat others as if they were God. And yet, there is more to life than being born. There is also more at stake for pregnant women than we acknowledge.

My concern is manifold. First, a group of people who happen to own a profit-making company are forcing their ideals on anyone who works there. They now have control over what their insurance supports and what kind of coverage individuals get. Although I support Hobby Lobby for other decisions its owners make on religious principles (being closed on Sundays and holidays so that, at least from their end, employees are guaranteed days off; paying a living wage; a CEO who isn’t a complete  glutton), religious views should not allow a profit-making company to avoid obeying the law. Secondly, I am concerned for all the Hobby Lobby employees who will not get coverage they might need and therefore bring children into the world that they cannot support. Thirdly, I do not like the implication that any one person (or group’s) religious views should dictate the lives of others.

But more than any of that, there is something deeply wrong with a theology that decides that all people need to have children simply because that is the outcome (for some) of sexual intercourse. Yes, God told us to “be fruitful and multiply,” but God said this in the context of an unpopulated world. What we frequently neglect is the second part of God’s command that says, “fill the earth and subdue it.” You know what? We have filled the earth. We are now at the point of overfilling, and therefore destroying, the earth. Not everyone needs to have children. Certainly not everyone needs to have the maximum amount of children possible. For some people, that is good. For others, not having children is good. Some people desperately want to have children and can’t. Others desperately want to stop having children and are now facing one more roadblock on that road. Perhaps we should be less concerned about what every woman’s uterus is doing (or not doing) and more concerned with how we are doing with that whole caring for creation thing…

Wes: I heard someone say this week that anyone who will not allow the use of contraceptives and anyone who is vehemently against every kind of abortion and yet does not have a home full of adopted children is a hypocrite and a liar.

I’m going to let that sink in for a second, because it took a second for it to sink in when I first heard it.

Now, I don’t think I would go that far, but it does bring up a very good point. We focus on the microcosm of the uterus quite a lot, and seem to miss the macrocosm of injustice around us.

We talk a lot in the church world about the sanctity of life. Life is a gift from God, and we need to cherish it. Jesus Christ came so that we might have life, and have it abundantly. This is one vein of the argument against birth control and abortion—one that I’ve heard many times. And you know what? I could not agree more. Life is sacred. We should be doing everything we can to make sure that everyone alive has a chance to live the most amazing life possible.

So why is it that our country—our world!—is full of children without homes?

So why is it that we allow poverty and homelessness to ruin lives and run rampant around us?

So why is it that we are not giving of our excess to those who do not have enough to feed their families?

Are not all of these things effecting and impeding the sanctity of life, and life lived to its fullest?

Why is it that the majority of my Facebook friends—myself and other pastors included—are paying more attention to the World Cup than we are about the fact that the ISIS, a group so militant that the Al Qaeda called them extremists, has carved out a chunk of land in the Middle East and is ruling by brute force?

Why is it that the church in the US presents itself as caring more about Hobby Lobby and birth control than we care about the fact that peace talks in the Ukraine and Israel/Palestine have once again broken down into violent attacks?

We—and by “we” I mean Christians in the USA today—have a problem with picking and choosing the wrong hills upon which to die. Our triage system is broken, and our justice sensors are too busy focusing on the (wrongfully perceived) persecution of a people who were told that they would be persecuted to see that the world is dying around us and we are doing next to nothing to preserve the sanctity of that life.

This is a problem. And it’s a problem I know I am guilty of spreading. I just hope I am in some way contributing more to the solution.

Holy Communion, Batman!

Wes: Jess and I like to pretend that there is a great deal of animosity and divide between our two denominations. We like to do this, honestly, because it's kind of fun. We get to fake argue over the merits of minute, trivial aspects of our theology that, in the long run, doesn't make that much of a difference to our identities as Methodist and Lutheran or as husband and wife. But there is one difference between our two denominations that causes a little bit of tension for us.

Not between us, but for us.

You see, the Evangelical Lutheran Church in America has a relatively open table regarding Holy Communion. Any baptized Christian is welcome to come up and receive the elements, experience Jesus Christ present in, with, under, and around the bread and wine, and participate again in the grace present in this meal. It doesn't matter if you are Lutheran, Methodist, Baptist, Catholic, or Orthodox. It doesn't matter if you attend every Sunday or are sparse at best, if you give all you can to the Kingdom of God or don't consider tithing important, if you read your Bible daily or leave it in the corner to collect dust. If you've been baptized, and you believe that Jesus is Lord, you are welcome.

Which is awesome. But it's not enough for me.

Because Methodists enjoy a completely open table. Any and everyone is welcomed to come up and participate in this most holy of practices, because we believe that the Eucharist is a means of grace. It is possible for the first time one experiences God's love and glimpses grace for the first time to happen while engaging in this sacred meal! God can and has used this to change lives, and we do not believe that we have the authority to bar anyone from partaking.

Which is why, every Sunday as I stand before the table, I remind my congregation that everyone is welcome. You don't have to be a member of KUMC, you don't have to be a United Methodist, you don't even have to be a Christian. For everything that needed to be done in this meal to make is holy and grace-infused happened over 2000 years ago when the Son of God died on the cross. There is nothing we can do or have done to earn a place at this table. Jesus paid it all for us. Therefore, any and all who are ready to take a step in faith and who wish to experience God's grace have a place at Jesus' table.

There's the rub between the ELCA and the UMC. It's basically the only major doctrinal difference. What's funny, though, is that this is not now--nor will it ever be!--something that Jess and I argue about! We both agree that the Methodists do it better! (At least in this aspect. I'm still working to convince Jess that the UMC is right about everything else as well, and she's still trying--without success--to bring me over to the Dark Side).

It's sometimes hard for me to go into a different denomination's church and know that some are restricted from receiving the bread and wine/juice. Now, I will say that the ELCA is not near as restrictive as others--there are some churches who demand you be a member of their specific congregation to receive!--but it is hard nonetheless. In a world where there are too many who have been rejected by the church, it is a struggle to see them barred from very meal that we use to celebrate Jesus' free gift to all.

There are a lot of things that I think the UMC could do better. There are even some areas where I think reform and rejuvenation are necessary if we are continue being a vital church. But I thank God every day that we do this right.

Jess: I have struggled with this question of how to properly handle Communion for many years, but this year in particular has been difficult for me. Wes is absolutely correct that we as Lutherans commune only those who are baptized. While I sometimes struggle with this, I am also at peace with it. 

The disciples most likely didn't start having Communion until after Jesus ascended. This means they received the Great Commission (to go throughout the world baptizing) before they began the practice of Communion. My guess is that they were baptized first, so it makes sense that this is our position. Lutherans put a lot of emphasis on "good order." We like to make sure that the means of grace (Communion and Baptism) aren't just thrown around willy-nilly. We believe that Christ commanded these sacraments and is truly present in them. Therefore, only ordained pastors can "do" the sacraments; we want to make sure reverence is kept. 

So, I'm okay with the Lutheran understanding of keeping Communion after Baptism--first you are brought into the community, and then you share in the meal of the community. That's cool with me. What I have been struggling with is the idea that there is some perfect age at which children "know" or "understand" enough to be able to have Communion. We have no such expectation of Baptism. We emphasize God's work in action through the sacrament of Baptism, and yet we neglect to do so in Communion. We are content to have parents take on baptismal promises, but we're not willing to help them teach their children about Baptism. The most ridiculous part of this is that one of the baptismal promises is about Communion!

Most ELCA churches have some sort of age at which they have decided children are old enough to have Communion. At some point during the school year, those children (3rd graders or 1st graders or whatever) are invited to one or two classes about Communion, and then they receive it on the following Sunday. Other pastors have chosen to allow parents to come individually when they believe their children are "ready."

I have a huge problem with this. Yes, I absolutely believe that age-appropriate instruction regarding Communion is a must. I think it's a must across the board--from very young children to adults. We can always hear again about the grace we have received, and how we are receiving a tangible reminder of that grace in Communion. But we have absolutely no right to decide when a child is ready to receive the promise present in Communion. There is no age at which we fully "understand" what is happening in Communion--we Lutherans have many documents that admit this openly. If this is the case, then there is no point at which we should bar a baptized Christian from having Communion. 

This has always weighed on my mind, but as I have had to watch James passed over each week (sometimes three times in the weekend) for Communion, I am absolutely positive that it's just plain wrong. Certainly, James has no idea what is going on as far as God's grace--he can't understand concepts like that. But he can absolutely understand that everyone else is being invited to share some bread and he is not. And he's 18 months old. Imagine how the 7-year-old who is "not ready" feels at being rejected like this. We are bringing up children who are learning that they are welcome to come to church, but they are not welcome to participate fully in the life of the church. We are raising children whose initial impressions of Communion revolve around being left out. This is not okay. 

In Wes' church--but also in Methodist churches around the country--any child who holds out their hand receives Communion. It's okay if they ask this week but not next week. It's okay that they don't "know" what's going on. It's okay because, by being a part of this community meal, by hearing "This is to remind you that Jesus loves you," they are being accepted. And when they are accepted, they will stay around long enough to learn more about Jesus, to learn more about Communion, and to be disciples of Christ.

(For more information on the ELCA's stance on Communion, go here.)

You stay classy, world wide web.

Wes and Jess

A Metheran Easter

Jess: Last year, after attempting Holy Week with a 4-month-old and two churches, we realized that we did not have a sustainable model for the busiest week in a pastor’s year. I really don’t know how we’ll handle Holy Week as the years go by. Once our kids are old enough to stay home by themselves/be ready to go at a certain time, it will be a different story. But for the foreseeable future, we’re going to be struggling to balance parenthood and pastorhood during Holy Week.

For those of you who are unaware, the typical Holy Week looks something like this: a normal schedule Monday-Wednesday, which means working more or less 9-5 or 8-4. Thursday evening includes some sort of service or gathering. Depending on the size of the congregation and the traditions of the surrounding area, Friday includes 1 or 2 services. Again, depending on the church community, there may be some semblance of an Easter Vigil on Saturday, which can range from 1-3 hours and go as late as 1 a.m. Then there is the potential for an Easter sunrise service on Sunday, and definitely one or (mostly likely) more services on Sunday morning. After this, the tradition is for a pastor to collapse in exhaustion. Between us, Wes and I had 12 services between the evening of Maundy Thursday and the afternoon of Easter (7 for me, 5 for him).

Besides the sheer number of services during Holy Week, there is the prep work that goes into them. At least one of the services leading up to Easter Sunday will have a sermon. An Easter Vigil sermon and an Easter sunrise or regular service probably won’t have the same sermon. Had I been the pastor of TLC, I would have preached three times in three days this weekend. At smaller congregations, there may not be the same number of services, but there are still bulletins to put together for each of them, and all the planning that goes into the services, including decorations (or the lack thereof), music, etc.

Wes and I both had enjoyable, worshipful weekends thanks to my mom coming out and helping with James during this crazy week. We also took the initiative to take Wednesday off so that we could rest up a little, knowing that we wouldn’t have an opportunity to take Thursday off as usual. All in all, although exhaustion definitely set in, I think it was a wonderful experience. One of my only disappointments was that we didn’t get a chance to spend time together in worship on Easter. Obviously, this is a reality most Sundays for us, but it was more difficult to deal with on Easter.

One of the nice things about the nature of our work is that, when everyone else is busier, we are generally not so much. Although Christmas is a big deal, it’s not that busy for pastors—it’s generally just one extra sermon and one extra evening of work. We have the blessing of taking days off in the middle of the week, so we can go grocery shopping when stores are empty, eat as a family at lunch special price, and catch up on TV when it’s still almost new. We can go in late or come home early when necessary—or to balance a late-night meeting or activity. We can still enjoy Saturday events as a family. Although we have our challenges, every family does. We have similar challenges to any family with two working spouses. And we get the joy of growing in our relationship with Christ and others and getting paid for it!

Wes: So something ridiculous happened to me during Holy Week. In the midst of all of our business and prep and trying to get things done while still spending intentional time with the family and still spending life-giving time by ourselves and still working on regular spiritual disciplines and still just trying to simply survive in the midst of all of the chaos,

our church

was struck

by lightening.

Monday morning, while our office administrator, Tanya Spain, and I were working away on Easter prep, a lightening storm hit our community. We didn’t think much of it other than that we were grateful that we were inside. Then came the thunder clap that was so deafening that I… Okay, I’m going to level with you. I jumped about three feet off of the ground. And I may or may not have yelped a little bit.

I look over to Tanya’s office, across the building, and she is standing holding her ears. Apparently the thunder clap was—get this!—accompanied by a lightening bolt. A lightening bolt that traveled through wires, frying everything on the West side of the building, and sending an enormous spark through the outlet right at Tanya’s feet.

This is what started my Holy Week.

Honestly, after that, everything else was a walk in the park. With Jess’ mom here playing with James, and so many wonderful people from the church jumping in to serve in different ways, everything seemed to go off without too much of a hitch.

Other than the lightening of course.

What was the most interesting part of it for me was the responses from so many both within and without of the church. I had people spanning the spectrum, giving me interpretations of what God was doing through the lightening strike. On one side, I heard that this was obviously God calling us to spend all of our efforts and money pouring new life into the old building and sanctuary, saying that we need to absolutely drop all plans for a new building and new ministries and focus exclusively on getting back to our roots. On the other side, I heard from a number of people that this was God obviously giving us permission to just demolish the old building and move on to bigger and better things.

It’s just amazing how God can speak near-contradictory things through the same incident, isn’t it?

So I spent Holy Week (and the week and a half since) trying to hold onto Christ’s declaration: “Behold, I make all things new.” I’ve been trying to remember and remind that God is doing a new thing in Kyle UMC while at the same time calling us to be good stewards of the gifts God has given us. It’s been interesting and fun.

So how was your Holy Week? And, since it’s taken me so long to write my part of this, how has your last week and a half been as well?

Oh, and yes. For those of you who are wondering, I did yelp. Like a scared little girl.

Two P's of Parenting from the Cains: Patience, and Partnership

Jess: Our little baby will be 16 months old on Friday, and I simply can’t believe it. In fact, a few weeks from now marks two years since we found out that our family would be growing. It is amazing how different our life looks since then. I can’t honestly say we have enjoyed every minute, but life is wonderful with James in our lives.

As I wiped pee off the floor this morning, I realized that there is one thing that has been really important during the last two years: PATIENCE. Now, just over a year ago, Wes and I wrote a blog about patience, and our lack thereof. And yet, out of everything that we have done, from reading books to talking to other parents to observing our own situation, having more patience has been the biggest game-changer.

In Evan Almighty, there is a point where God (awesomely portrayed by Morgan Freeman) talks to the main character’s wife about how God goes about answering prayers. He says, “Let me ask you something. If someone prays for patience, you think God gives them patience? Or does he give them the opportunity to be patient? If he prayed for courage, does God give him courage, or does he give him opportunities to be courageous? If someone prayed for the family to be closer, do you think God zaps them with warm fuzzy feelings, or does he give them opportunities to love each other?”

There is so much patience required in being a parent. First, you have to wait nine months for the kid to bother to make an appearance. In that time, you wait to hear a heartbeat, wait to see the baby, wait to discover the baby’s gender, wait for signs of labor, wait, wait, wait. There’s no speeding up the process—babies need time to develop. And even once they’re here, there is literally nothing they can do for themselves for months. You wait for the day they can soothe themselves, sit up alone, feed themselves, sleep through the night, etc.

All of this waiting, all of these opportunities to be patient, are what have created greater patience in me. I can see it in other areas of my life, as well. I’m more patient in traffic, more patient when projects take awhile to get going, more patient in everyday conversations. This is going to be a great asset in my life as a pastor. But the greatest benefits of patience learned through parenting has been having more patience for parenting.

Throughout James’ young life, we have made many changes: liquid to solid diet, sleeping in our room to sleeping in his own room, following James’ schedule to making our own, bottles to cups, three naps to two naps to one nap. Each one of these changes is pretty major for a little guy who hasn’t known anything else his whole life. Each time we make a change, we’ve gone the “slow and steady” route. Introduce a little solid food. Gradually tweak James’ schedule till it becomes our own. And now, we’re working on two slow processes: getting rid of the pacifier and potty training.

By not having expectations that these things will happen overnight, we don’t jar James out of his comfort zone. We take our time so that the new thing seems natural by the time we’ve completely switched to it. Patience is key. James isn’t going to be in “big boy” underwear by tomorrow. But he just might use the potty, and that’s something to celebrate. For James, too, is learning patience. He’s also learning that his parents love him and will walk with him through the challenges in life. And he is teaching us so much along the way.

Wes: Jess, once again, said basically everything that needed to be said. In fact, I loved the way that she ended her part of the post so much that I actually feel bad about writing anything after it. So, if you don’t want to read this part of the post, that’s cool. I would have stopped with Jess’ words as well.

But here’s the deal. I have to write something. In part because I’m one of those people who almost always has something to say and in part (a much larger part) because Jess is expecting me to write my half of this post. This blog is a team effort, and we are partnering in it. If I were to not hold up my end of partnership, it would not be the same. That doesn’t necessarily mean that it would be less of a blog—I already admitted that you could only read Jess’ parts and be perfectly content with life—but it wouldn’t be complete in the way we meant it to be complete.

That’s also what I’ve found to be true with parenting. Jess and I joke on occasion that she parents James and I babysit James, like it’s something I do for short periods of time and then receive some form of payment for services rendered (clothes washed, food prepared, etc…). We’ve both known people who function this way, and in most cases, that works fine for them.

But we’ve worked hard to make sure that our parenting is different—not better, but different, and something that better fits with our understanding of family and philosophy of childrearing.

So when we joke about me babysitting, it’s actually a reminder to both of us of the partnership we have entered when it comes to our son. Both of us see our parenthood as a pairs match—neither of us should have to bear all of the burden of raising James on our own. That’s not how we have set up this game to be played.

That is not at all to say that one cannot do a fantastic job raising kids by his/herself. I will be the first to admit that Jess is the better, more equipped and prepared parent. James would grow up to be a fine young man if she were a single parent, and—in all honesty—I probably cause more damage with this partnership than would be there if I were not in the picture. James already has a bad habit of head-butting people and sticking his tongue out at them, because hey, I think it’s hilarious.

Jess could do this whole parenting thing on her own and shine at it, but that’s not how we have decided to do this whole raising kids thing. It’s a partnership, and one we each have to actively be a part of if we want to see it work.

Luckily, I’m not as forgetful with James as I am with posting our blogs on a regular basis!

So here’s just a little glimpse into our process and two things that we have found to be vitally important in how we raise our son. This is not meant to be instructive—not that it couldn’t do that—but is instead meant to show you a little more of who we are and what has rang true for our lives, this past year especially.

That’s all for now. You stay classy, World Wide Web.

wes and jess

Lent 2014

Jess: We are officially in the season of Lent, and Wes and I are doing a smattering of Lenten disciplines this year. The whole purpose of these practices is to remove obstacles that get in the way of your relationship with God, with keeping faith and the Almighty at the center of your life. Over the years, we have both "given up" a variety of things: junk food, TV, Facebook, etc. 

This year, we had a long discussion about what would be good to give up for the season of Lent, and we came up with...nothing. We talked about giving up Facebook, which is not a bad idea, but we have too many people who keep in contact through that method. Instead, I chose to move the FB app on my phone out of the way so that I'm not automatically hitting it when I turn on my phone. I think more carefully about whether I'm getting on FB because I have something important to do there, or because I'm too lazy to think of something better to do with my time. 

I stopped giving up certain kinds of food a few years ago after I lost five pounds over Lent. I don't want the underlying purpose of any Lenten discipline to be losing weight or some other outcome that's better for me in that way. As a side benefit, losing weight was fine, but going into Lent knowing that that would probably happen wouldn't work the same. Plus, Wes and I are both trying to be healthier overall, so we've been making changes along the way. 

While I tossed out the idea of giving up TV, Wes pointed out that we don't even watch TV every day anymore. We have 4 or 5 half hour shows that we watch when they're new, plus we have a show we're watching on Netflix. For the most part, we watch less than an hour of TV per day. Some days it's none, and some days we veg, but an hour or less is the norm. We don't let James watch TV, so our time for doing so is limited to his sleep times, and we generally would rather read or play a game at this point in our lives. This didn't seem like a sacrifice that would really change our lives in any significant way, and it certainly wouldn't lead us closer to God, it would just lead us to read or play games more often. 

So this year we settled on simplification and re-focusing our lives, which is the overall goal of Lent. We are supposed to take this time to examine ourselves and our lives, and see where they are going astray from God's plan for us. To that end, we are taking on two Lenten disciplines: 1) 40 bags in 40 days, which involves going through our house, our cars, and probably our computers/phones to throw out/give away what we don't need or use. 2) Reading through and doing activities from Adam Hamilton's Love to Stay, with the purpose of taking time to focus on our marriage and God each week and day of the season. I'm looking forward to both!

Wes: Basically, what Jess said.

Also, I’m trying a couple of new things during this Lenten season that should be fun. One of my good friends, Jon Lys, has agreed to do a Facetime book study with me. We’re going to be reading through Dietrich Bonhoeffer’s Ethics, the book he began to write and never finished while staying as a permanent resident in a Nazi death camp. He was executed before he could finish it. I’m excited to read through this with Jon, and excited to dive once again into one of my favorite theologian/pastor’s works.

The second thing that I’m going to try to do—we’ll see how successful it is—it to blog on a daily basis on either this blog or my personal one, The Flip-Flop Prophet. I’ve gotten way out of habit, and it’s actually something I like to do, so I’m hoping this can be a good encouragement for me. Between the decluttering, Love to Stay, and Ethics—as well as my weekly storytelling, sermon writing, etc…—I should have plenty to write about.

So what are y’all doing for Lent? Let us know, so we can encourage you in your endeavors.

Losing to Win

Jess: For most of our marriage, Wes and I have both wanted to lose weight. We have both had highs and lows through challenging ourselves to get healthier. I personally found that I was the healthiest during my pregnancy. Why is it that it’s always easier to do something for someone else than for yourself?

As I look back over the arc of my relationship with Wes, I realize that we have gradually become healthier as individuals and as a couple. When we got married, we simply didn’t have much money. This was a blessing and a curse. We didn’t have a lot of spare cash for things like chips or ice cream or going out, but we also didn’t have money to buy a lot of fresh fruits and vegetables. Lacking money and moving to New Jersey in the dead of winter meant we spent a lot of our free time watching TV.

When we moved to our house, we got into a routine of taking walks around the neighborhood, and even did some small trips to go hiking for an afternoon. We still watched a lot of TV, but we started earning enough money to buy decent food, yet managed to keep junk food out of the house for the most part. For the first 9-ish months of living in our house, we shared a car, so Wes walked/biked to work a lot, and I went to school with him and would walk around Princeton while he was in class.

Now that we’re back in Texas, we can walk almost any day that it’s not raining. James loves being outside and asks to do so every day. We can go to the park/playground, and we love to move as a family. James has gotten to the point of wanting to eat whatever we eat, so we’re very careful about what we choose to put on our plates and in our cups. We don’t want him to grow up challenged by a sweet tooth or overwhelming love of French fries, and that’s changing our habits, too.

Through all this, I realize that the things that have worked the best are those that we have done together. We have made an agreement to not keep many sweets (for my sake) or chips (for Wes’) around the house. We go out occasionally and try to share, paying attention to what we’re eating. We like to take walks together and do our best to walk to various places in Kyle, or at least park the car far away when we go to shop.

The greatest change for both of us has been getting pedometers and enrolling in a six-month Diet Bet. We’ve committed to trying to lose 10% of our weight over 6 months, with each month holding its own percentage goal. Wes’ health care program gives us money for completing certain step goals each quarter. It’s been a great way to get us up and moving.

When we switched to Fitbit trackers, we also got the phone app that helps us track our food, water, calories burned, etc. Just in the couple weeks we’ve had them, I can see a remarkable change in our eating and activity. I feel more compelled to track my food because I know Wes and I will talk about it. We have a bit of healthy competition, but we mostly compete against ourselves and cheer each other on. I’m so proud of what Wes has been doing—he won our Diet Bet this last month, even after I had given up on any chance of doing so. I think getting healthy is one of the best things we have done as a couple, and the effects are clear in James, as well!

Wes: So here’s the deal with me and food: I love to eat. I blame my parents, because of course nothing is my fault. I’ve never had too bad of a sweet tooth—I like the occasional ice cream, sure—but what really gets me is savory shtuff. I love chips and salsa. Even better is chips and queso. I love chicken wings. And ribs. And chicken-fried steak. If it tastes oh so good, you know I’m going to want a bite or twelve… hundred.

Growing up, my family was mostly a meat-and-potatoes and comfort food family. Our veggies were, for the most part, from cans, and we ate out a lot. I’ve talked with my parents about it many times, and every time we talked, I realized that it was really the easiest and fastest way to put out food for a family of seven (plus the constant stream of friends, family, and strangers who found their way to our kitchen). I don’t hold it against them at all; I still eat that way when I have the choice! But it meant that I had a pretty steep learning curve to conquer if I was going to be able to start eating healthier and losing weight.

That and my dad’s cooking is really, really good.

Going into college, I noticed that when I had the freedom to eat whatever and cook whatever, I actually chose to eat a little healthier. I liked the taste of fresh and frozen veggies better than their canned counterparts. I liked the taste of marinated and grilled meats much better than fried. I would rather eat brown rice than white—as long as it was in casserole form (which, as Jess will and does complain about, is my favorite way to cook).

But I still ate. A lot. And I was never able to get into a regular fitness program to which I actually looked forward every day. Well, marrying Jess changed my diet even more—for the much, much better—as she’s already mentioned. But I still couldn’t find a way to encourage myself to get out and get healthy.

I hadn’t always been so sedimentary—when I was younger, I was extremely active in sports and loved above everything else to swim. So I decided to try that back out. We got a membership at a local pool in NJ and I started swimming regularly. But then I made the grave mistake of deciding that since I was burning so much, I could eat so much more.

It’s taken me all of my adolescent and adult life (which I admit is still not too long), but I think I’ve finally found the happy medium between working out on a regular basis (swimming and power walking mostly) and eating well. For the first time in a very long time, I’m not squeezing into my clothes, worrying about when my XXL’s would turn into XXXL’s. I’m not watching my waist size climb and climb, knowing that soon I’d have to buy more clothes, to find a bigger belt.

I’m actually losing, and feeling great about myself for the first time in a very long time. I’m just about ready to transition down to a single X, something that I haven’t felt comfortable in since Junior High, and I have already gone down two pant sizes as of today. I am actually having to engage in the fun task of buying a smaller belt, because I’m tired of punching my own holes in my current one.

I’ve still got a very long way to go until I’m where I want to be. I still want to some day pursue reserve chaplaincy in the Air Force once I’m ordained, and I cannot do that until I lose even more serious poundage.

But I’m on the right track, and it’s a great feeling.

Thank you to all of those who have been an encouragement and support to us in this process. Y’all stay classy.

-j&w

On the Seventh Day of Christmas, Wessica Gave to Me...

Jess: Wes and I have been spending a lot of time talking about Christmas this year. We wrote a blog a couple of years ago about Christmas (http://themetheranlife.blogspot.com/2011/12/love-came-down-at-christmas.html#comment-form). I knew things would change when we had kid(s), but I never realized just how different it would be.

Last year, James was just barely a month old at Christmas. We had assumed he would be late, and therefore would arrive just a week or so before Christmas. I had SO many people ask what we were getting James for Christmas, and I was kind of offended. Wasn’t LIFE good enough for a month-old baby? What would even be the point of wrapping something for him?

This year, things are a little different. James kind of understands the concept of opening a present. He kind of has fun doing so.  And yet, his present from us has been open and used for almost two weeks now, and I never wrapped it to start with. There is a lot of pressure on us to do these big things for James’ birthdays and Christmas, yet he honestly doesn’t care. We joked about wrapping a box, because that’s all he cares about.

The whole Christmas-present discussion is a can of worms. Of course we want to get things for our child, but we do that on a regular basis. I certainly don’t want to raise a kid who thinks he’s entitled to presents. I also don’t want to raise a child who thinks his behavior is being monitored by a creepy elf who reports to an old fat guy, either. I want James to truly appreciate what he is given, to recognize that he is privileged far beyond most children in the world, and to want to help others rather than be greedy.

Perhaps this is a lot to ask of my child—certainly it is too much right now. But one day he will understand this gift giving and receiving thing. One day he will learn more about the rest of the world. One day he will find out that Santa is a concept, not a person.

We have a lot of things to work out regarding Christmas, and thankfully, James is too young to care right now. Santa or no Santa? Lots of presents or just one? How will he give presents? Should we have a Christmas tradition of helping rather than hoarding? Obviously, with Wes and I both being pastors, Christmas is going to look very different in our home than in James’ friends’ homes. I’m kind of glad for that. Maybe we’ll take advantage of how different it already is and remember to make Christmas about what it’s really supposed to be: the birth of Jesus, who came into the world, died, and was raised again for the sake of all people. What other gift do we really need?

Wes: First, a confession: It is my fault that we haven’t posted anything in a while. Jess keeps sending me blogs, and I keep putting them aside and not doing anything with them. Like she writes her entire part, and then I do… nothing. Sorry, friends. I let you down.

Now: Christmas. I love Christmas. I love celebrating the birth of Christ with my friends and family. I love the winter wonderland (even sans snow). I love the cheer.

I still think it’s magical to open up presents and to see what others have thought were the perfect gifts for me. I love even more seeing the looks on my loved ones’ faces when they open my gifts and I know immediately that yes, I did find the perfect gift for them (I wish this one happened more often).

But wow if we haven’t turned Christmas into a gluttonous thing! It’s like that scene from the first Harry Potter book/movie, when Dudley gets all of those presents—and demands another when he counts and doesn’t have enough—and Harry… gets… nothing.

We spend sooooooooooooo much money on gifts, food for feasts, travel to get places, etc… and yet, rarely do we do much anything for those truly in need. Yeah, sure, donations and giving to charity go up during the Christmas season, and yeah, not all of it is because of that bell ringer staring guilt into your eyes as you leave Target, but it’s not near enough.

And I’m not saying I do this all right, either. I bought too many presents and received too many present. I used the cash gifts I was given—I’ll admit it, those are my favorite—to get more stuff.

As good ol’ Relient K once sang, “I’m part of the problem, I confess, but I gotta get this off my chest.”

We hear so many people of faith throughout our nation ready to complain about how the secular world has ruined Christmas, how atheists are bringing the downfall of this wonderful holiday, etc… But I have to wonder how many of my brothers and sisters join me every year in catering to that commercialization. How many of us spend our money on decorations, holiday-themed clothing, gifts, and so much more as a way to honor our the birth of our Lord

when what would really honor Jesus Christ would be to feed the hungry, clothe the naked, house the homeless, and visit the sick and the imprisoned?

Sadly, that doesn’t sound like our “ideal way” to celebrate Christmas to me…

Merry Christmas, World Wide Web.